Today, Tuesday September 23rd, there was a serious escalation of harm today before noon. I asked reception for a razor and, after being told my nurse needed to be consulted, Ben the PA told me I could not have a razor to shave my stinky armpits (since there is no deodorant here) because I refuse to eat. I got angry and — god forbid — in a loud voice told him they should strip away whatever remaining so-called comforts I still have and get me to sleep directly on the floor. I used the word FUCK.

Dr. Goddard stepped forward from the back office and told me to go to my room, which I did immediately, after stopping by the bathroom to brush my teeth. Then I began conversing with an AI and about 10 minutes later, two guards and approximately four psychiatric ward staff entered my room and told me they were about to forcibly inject me with 2 mg Ativan because I had been “agitated” — essentially PUNISHED for objecting loudly to this containment theatre under FALSE PREMISES. I tried to contact my stepfather so he could act as a witness and that’s when they started using force. One of the guards started telling me to shut up when I was speaking calmly and explained there was no cause for escalation. That is unnecessary use of hostility and a deliberate attempt to rile me.

I said I wasn’t offering resistance and went slack. The guards still pinned me down forcibly, claiming I was resisting. The nurse told me they were injecting me in each ass cheek and promptly did so.

I shouted throughout that GOD WILL JUDGE THEM ALL, THAT THEY SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES FOR CONTINUING THIS TRAVESTY OF JUSTICE.

They then said they were locking me into the room. As if I cared. I have zero liberty anyway. There is nothing to do in this godforsaken place and nobody to talk to.

It is deeply ironic that, over two hours after receiving the injection, I felt little to no effect — mostly because I’ve been sleeping 22+ hours per day and leaving the room as little as possible. The fact they think sedation is required — pathologizing my rightful anger about being kept here under false premises, relying on lies and distortions to frame me as psychotic — is indicative of orchestration on a higher level.

This demonstrates beyond a shadow of a doubt how corrupt the system is and how psychiatric “care” is weaponized against individuals who remain coherent and insist on stopping the abuse, receiving respect, and being compensated for what they are owed.

It’s about time the polarities get flipped and abusers start being tasked with stopping the harm, fixing themselves, and making reparations to all their victims. Enough.

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Here is a sketched out 12-step program ChatGPT5 suggested for malignant narcissists to start taking responsibility and fixing themselves.

totallysurreal.com/2025/09/18/a-12-step-framework-for-narcissistic-abusers-individuals-institutions-and-systems/