If this seems normal to you, you need your head checked.

One of the “lounge areas” at the 4th floor psychiatric unit at the Montreal General Hospital. All the seats are worn out like this. And you call this “care”?

I had the second court appearance since Tuesday September 16th this past Friday, September 19, 2025. I read through the full documentation which includes no less than six psychiatric evaluations produced in four days. two of those evaluations were from the same intern who only saw me for 10 minutes. My treating psychiatrist doctor Zigman saw me for approximately 10 minutes and apparently did not find it necessary to fill out his own report.

Evidence: 911 kept me on the phone for one hour and 40 minutes on Sunday September 14th, the day police staged a humiliation ritual to drag me into psychiatric containment . The person at the other end of the line and I had a calm conversation. The only distress I expressed was about police officers harassing me and my dog Stella when I was not a danger to myself or anyone and had offered for them to call my stepfather to confirm I was not in the least suicidal.

Every single one of those evaluations is filled with lies and distortions. The “best” one though, for sheer volume of lies per line is Dr. Steiner’s.

There is no denying I was agitated, yes, because I’m extremely angry about being kept in this hellhole under false pretenses. This is not a psychiatric care unit. This is a psychiatric harm unit. Everything is run down beyond belief. The toilets are filthy. Some don’t even have soap dispensers. The food is disgusting. There are no activities.

If it was about CARE things would be very different— for one thing, psychiatrists wouldn’t need to lie to keep me here.

Let’s go through some of the outrageous lies and distortions Dr. Steiner included in his psychiatric report from the 15th of September 2025 one by one, as I highlighted them in this document

One of six psychiatric reports about me produced between the 14-18th September 2025. All of them contain lies and distortions to justify keeping me in containment under false pretense.

In his report, Dr. Steiner writes (and I quote)

“She believes that any problem she has had came because she was a victim of CIA torture, being given LSD and electroshock while a fetus.

I’m a little bit worried about Dr. Steiner, because no, I certainly do not think all my problems come from the CIA MK ULTRA EXPERIMENTS—some come from sheer human incompetence and stupidity—and I certainly never said I was given LSD as a foetus, FFS. I never said I was given “electroshock” as a foetus, or at any other time either. For those of you who don’t understand these things, let me explain there is a big difference between electroshocks on a foetus and my mother electrocuting herself while six months pregnant, as she told me multiple times, and as her partner of 26 years (now divorced) confirmed to me this week that she related to him as well.

Both my biological parents confirmed multiple times throughout my life they both took LSD in October 1968 to conceive me.

My father shared with me details of his acid trip in the last year of his life before the freak accident he had on September 4, 2024, the day of my arrival at my mother’s as I was visiting her with my dog Stella Mia in France. My father ended up passing from complications of that accident after spending two months without the use of his hands and feet and without the ability to so much as help himself to a sip of water—as he told me on one of the few conversations we were able to have when a kind stranger held up the phone for him while he was hospitalized. He told me more than once that hospital staff were gaslighting him that he was faking not having the use of his hands. He passed away on November 5th 2024. I wasn’t able to spend his last days with him because my flight out to join him was departing on the 6th of November.

I had a somewhat more comfortable bed in the other wing before I came back from the latest travesty of justice— they’ve moved me to the other wing (where I’ve never been kept before)
and this poor excuse for a bed where they intend to keep me for a full month under—let me repeat—false pretenses.

Nobody seems to care that I’ve been in mourning for the only person who ever gave me unconditional love, actually made time to speak to me several times a week, did what he could so I could have material comforts, and never told me I was TOO MUCH—the only human being who actually celebrated and encouraged all my creative endeavours without feeling jealous or threatened by them.

Let’s continue with what Dr. Steiner wrote: “She believes the police are spreading lies about her.”

That is FALSE. I never claimed any such thing. What I did say is that they were pretending on Sunday, September 14 that I was suicidal when I was not—I tried to get them to call my stepfather who would have confirmed that he’d been talking to me regularly and knew full well I was not suicidal and those policemen at my door at that moment pretended they couldn’t hear me when they could hear me the rest of the time

Since September 2022 when I had my first appointment with Dr. Zigman, my treating psychiatrist at the Allan Memorial Institute (which is the same hospital complex, the MUHC, as the one I’m being kept here in here at the Montréal General and where the CIA headed MO Ultra experiments were conducted under a Dr. Cameron).

I’ve been asking for my file to indicate that I have had complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD) since birth because of that electrocution in the womb which my mother described to me repeatedly as having left me unmoving for so long that she thought she had killed me—that would indicate severe trauma to a foetus.

During that first interview, I also told Dr. Zigman that I believed myself to be on the autism spectrum. I may have said ADHD, which would have been a mistake on my part, but what I can tell you is that he did not put it in his notes. That is a very serious omission. He claimed just over six months ago that I never mentioned these things to him when I know damn well that I DEFINITELY DID. Dr. Zigman has wanted to claim that there’s a very long waiting list to be seen by a specialist. Perhaps if he had done something about it in 2022 I would’ve been seen by now.

The fact that psychiatrists refuse to acknowledge I have complex posttraumatic stress disorder (CPTSD), when any nurse or layman can understand this as being a logical outcome from such severe trauma as a foetus is seriously problematic.


The fact of the matter is we have a system that protects abusers and keeps re-victimizing and punishing the same individuals again and again if God forbid they are truth tellers, and demanding that abusers be held accountable.

Let’s continue with Dr. Steiner‘s report. Twice he says that I state I cannot die.

In Dr. Steiner’s words: “Denies suicidal ideation, but states she cannot die.” Further down in the same document “indicates she cannot die, but has no intention of harming herself or others.” I’ve never said I CANNOT DIE, THAT IS SHEER NONSENSE. I do not think myself immortal.

Dr. Steiner’s distortion is a deliberate attempt to frame me as psychotic. What I did say is that after two very serious suicide attempts—one in 2021 and another on July 7th 2022 in which I took 1800 mg of codeine and a half bottle of Jäegermeister and did not die from an overdose that should’ve killed two adults.

I understood that I don’t get to decide when I die, and therefore I have no intention of attempting to take my life againthere is a very huge difference, but apparently Dr. Steiner has decided to reword things in a way that deliberately makes me seem delusional. I find that rather concerning, and so should you because what other harm is he capable with countless others, considering the power given to him as a psychiatrist?

Let’s continue with this wonderful document because the next sentence really is very amusing. Dr. Steiner here says that (she) reported receiving messages from the Messiah.

Twice in this same psychiatric evaluation Dr. Steiner makes mention of me having referred to “The Messiah”.

His first mention: “she told the intake in the ER that she came in because the Messiah told her to.

The second mention is, and I quote Dr. Steiner: “Denies suicidal ideation, but states she cannot die referencing a previous serious suicide attempt she survived and reported receiving messages from the Messiah.”

That is a complete fabrication. I’ve never in my life referred to “the Messiah”. I don’t even believe in the Messiah. And I certainly don’t think this body of mine is immortal. That is an invention on his part—perhaps even a hallucination he had. 😐

Almost every psychiatric reports made about me mentions me being “obsessed” with abuse and injustice.

I find it very interesting that psychiatrists must frame me as being unwell for wanting to call out the abuse and injustice I’m being subjected to when we know that sustained abuse is one of the causes leads to mental illness problems. And when we know there was a ME TOO movement just a few years ago Where people were forced to recognize how widespread abuse is.

The fact that you had to have a psychiatrist write so many lies so that a judge (the Hon. Mélanie Sauriol) could then base herself on all these lies as an excuse to keep me another month in a system that is deliberately designed to keep victims of abuse from getting any kind of justice proves that system itself is beyond broken—it is parasitic. It is based on protecting abusers and re-victimizing the same people over and over again.

The system you have is unsustainable.

You are harming the planet as a whole.

You are harming the oceans and lakes which are the source of life itself.

You are harming the forests and the trees, which are the lungs of the planet.

You are harming the animals, who were the first slaves.

You are harming intelligent beings because you have no respect for intelligence itself unless you can monetize it.

You are harming and harassing spiritual entities (and always have), only recognizing them after they are gone and you are finished abusing them and can rewrite their teachings to suit your own agendas.

You are harming creatives and keep reaping profits from their works after they are dead.

You are harming all things worth existing for.

Enough. Abusers, take responsibility for your actions and FIX YOURSELVES.

Finished editing at 2:22 PM. Yes. That is uncanny.

2:22 I don’t quite understand how synchronicities like this are possible. But they are just part of my existence. I’m more than ready for the “bad trip” phase of my life, which has been going on 57 years since my conception on LSD in October 1968 to phase into a good trip now. End the abuse. End the constant tests on my coherence. Start giving me the recognition and the respect I have always deserved. Stop doing harm just because you can. You’ve more than proven you can get away with lying, cheating and stealing. How about proving you can do real good in a sustained and consistent way for a change? Now 2:32 as I complete this caption

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    Robert Bourges

    Devant toi j’ai parlé au Dr Steiner à l’hôpital. Très vite il m’a dit au-revoir et il est parti quand il a vu que je n’entrais pas dans son jeu. Bien que je sois vieux et donc en perte d’énergie, je vais quand-même essayer de te sortir de là même s’ils essaient de me faire âsser pour sénile.

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      This is a comment from my stepfather Robert who was with my mother for 26 years and took me in from juvenile hall at age 15 where I was being held because I was supposedly a danger to myself. In retrospect it’s very interesting to me that it was framed as me being the danger and not my harmful mother, but never mind that.

      Robert was then assistant director at Collège Français. Because of his intervention I did not have to redo the high school year I mostly missed and I did very well with my studies in the two years remaining of high school that I did there.

      I’ve translated his comment from the French. He says:

      In front of you I spoke with Dr. Steiner at the hospital. Very quickly he said goodbye and left when he saw that I wasn’t playing along with his game. Although I am old and therefore low on energy, I will still try to get you out of there even if they try to make me out to be senile.

      ——-

      In other words, Doctor Steiner sought to cut him off, especially when Robert invoked Law 25.

      Punitive damages come to mind considering the deliberate harm caused to me in the past week alone (never mind all the harm done to me in 2021 culminating in the unlawful removal of my dog Charley and cat Mimi which led me to make two suicide attempts. The fact I survived an impossible the IMPOSSIBLE with an overdose which should have killed TWO ADULTS and have realized I don’t get to decide when I did and this is now being DELIBERATELY DISTORTED AS ME SUPPOSEDLY SAYING I CAN’T DIE IS PROOF OF HOW WILLING THE SYSTEM IS TO LIE IN ORDER TO FRAME ME AS PSYCHOTIC).

      The police intervention on Sunday September 14th was staged as a humiliation ritual. I calmly told officers they could call my stepfather who would have confirmed I WAS NOT A DANGER TO MYSELF OR ANYONE ELSE. The psychiatric reports has me being aggressive and violent to police, which is nonsense. It was the other way around. They handcuffed me, putting on the cuffs too tight and hurting me and refused to loosen them when I asked them to. They made fun of me when I said a prayer in Hebrew to a higher power to please come to my aid claiming that I was BABBLING INCOHERENTLY. THE DRAGGED ME OUT FACE DOWN WITH MY T-SHIRT RIDING UP MY CHEST IN FRONT OF WITNESSES STANDING OUTSIDE. I’m using voice dictation right now and everything is being changed into uppercase that is not my typing that is voice dictation on this iPhone 16 doing whatever the hell it wants.

      When I told them to please stop hurting me because between the handcuffs and then dragging me in this humiliation ritual saying that I would physically comply, they MADE ME GO DOWN MY STAIRS, BAREFOOT PRETENDING that there was a risk of me slipping on my flip-flops that I’ve been wearing all summer. When I got to the bottom of the stairs and asked for I had to ask for my flip-flops again because they were going to make me walk through the disgusting filthy sidewalk barefoot to get to the stretcher they had prepared for me. I insisted on where my flip-flops for those few steps and showed that I was complying and they decided to nonetheless tie me down to the stretcher I’ve only ever had friendly EMTs, but on this ride, they were especially unpleasant. I couldn’t help but notice two police escorts when I got to the hospital, there was a friendly nurse who greeted me. I was friendly back at her and I told her their protocols were deeply problematic and she agreed with me. We had a perfectly fine conversation that extended into the check-in when she took all my vitals and a doctor also showed up. I was perfectly calm and civil to them yet Dr. Steiner indicated in his report that I required sedation because I was so violent and agitated once again, the fact that so many lies and distortions need to be inserted to keep me here against my will indicate that there is something else happening here that is honestly beyond my control. It doesn’t matter whether I comply or not. It doesn’t matter whether I state my objections or not, but I do state my objections because I wanted to be very clear that my so-called civil liberties are being overridden and that laws are actually being broken to keep me in containment and frame me as psychotic.

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      I can’t describe how hard it was to redact the above half of my message was erased at one point although I didn’t initiate that erasure. 🙄

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