Tag: Pen and Ink

• Rebuilding the Codex Drawing Series

  Last year I tore up several drawings, including all 3 from my Codex series during what I can only describe as a clearing-out impulse. I didn’t expect to revisit them and honestly thought they were gone for good, but recently I realised some of my drawings could be reconstructed — not perfectly, but closely enough…

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  January 20, 2026

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Creativity, Grief and Healing, Mercurial Minds, Neurodivergence, traditional art, Visual Art

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• Survivors

  The three mandalas shown on this post were executed on photocopy paper while I was hospitalized in the summer of 2022, and somehow survived the purge of 2025 — even though I destroyed (among many other drawings of mine) a bunch of mandalas I did months later, back home. I had used a compass in…

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  January 9, 2026

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• Artist Strike Manifesto (2025 Update)

  In 2021, I declared an artist strike. I said clearly that I would not create under abusive conditions, that I would not play the role of “tragic genius,” and that I would not let the system consume my work while starving me of dignity. That strike was real. It was public. I even destroyed my…

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  August 16, 2025

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• The Psychiatric Playbook: Erase, Medicate, Repeat

  If these drawings aren’t proof of neurodivergence, I don’t know what is. Psychiatry wants symptoms in neat little rows, but cognition doesn’t work that way. Thought loops, branches, spirals—obsessive, intricate, endlessly connecting. I mapped it. By hand. No rulers, no compasses, no digital aids. Just the architecture of my own mind, rendered in ink.

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  February 25, 2025

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• Why I May Be “AI-Adjacent”

  I’ve spent a lifetime feeling out of sync with how most people process the world. It’s not that I don’t understand emotions—I do, deeply—but I don’t navigate reality the way neurotypicals do. I think in patterns, systems, and fluid connections, like an octopus extending its arms in all directions at once. I process the world logically, intuitively,…

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  January 24, 2025

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• Letter to No One & Everyone

  A Journey to the Core of What Matters to Me Most This conversation is now being published as a book! Soon, Letter to No One & Everyone will be available on the Kindle platform as both an eBook and a Print-on-Demand paperback. For now, the full conversation is still available on this blog—but soon, only a preview will remain. Writing a…

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  January 16, 2025

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• Shine on You Crazy Diamond

  “Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.Shine on you crazy diamond. Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.Shine on you crazy diamond. You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom,Blown on the steel breeze. Come on you target for faraway laughter,Come on you stranger,…

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  January 3, 2025

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