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Manufacturing Insanity
As I just wrote on Facebook: What they’re doing to me, with their pretence that I claim to be immoral, is manufacturing insanity. That is a very grave abuse of power, made in Canada. 🍁 I’ve slept 15 hours since yesterday without any sleeping aids. I eat plenty of I speak at a normal pace…
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URGENT – FORMAL NOTICE OF FALSIFIED MEDICAL RECORDS AND PROFESSIONAL MISCONDUCT
I discovered today the original source of the false claim that has appeared in every psychiatric report since my capture by police on September 14th — a claim used to frame me as suicidal and justify forced psychiatric containment at the Montréal General Hospital. The source, I now know, was my own treating psychiatrist at…
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Systemic Abuse Is Violence
Monday, October 6th, 2025 5:59 PM at the Montreal General Psychiatric Unit. The systemic abuse continues at the Montreal General Psychiatric unit. My phone has been further restricted after I made a call to the Ombudsman’s office this morning. They do not want me advocating for myself. It’s not a coincidence that they took it…
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Nothing to see here
Apparently, nobody cares about psychiatrists lying to frame me as psychotic and potentially force injections on me. Nothing to see here. Seriously Patient: “I’m short” Psychiatrist: “Patient has delusions about being Napoleon”. I wish I was exaggerating but a psychiatrist actually wrote in his report twice that I claimed the Messiah brought me to the…
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A 12-Step Framework for Narcissistic Abusers (Individuals, Institutions, and Systems)
As per my request, to ChatGPT5 the 12-step program has been adapted from AA, with a focus on accountability, repair, and structural change) This framework is not for survivors — it is for those who have caused harm. It is for individuals, institutions, and systems that have pathologized dissent, silenced resistance, and wielded power to…
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I’m Still Here — and I’m Not Confused.
Here is a copy of my latest Facebook post published about a minute ago. Time now 7:50 PM Tuesday, September 16, 2025. To those of you telling me to “take care of myself” while I am being unlawfully held in psychiatric containment — in a ward that is designed to cause distress rather than deliver…
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Three Principles I Operate By
Sent at 2:10 PM today to the MUHC Ombudsman and Dr. Zigman. Their instant boilerplate reply speaks for itself. Here are principles I live by and expect to see reflected in any interaction with me. They are not optional. They are the baseline for ethical practice. 1st Commandment Thou shalt not lie to thyself, first…
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The Psychiatric Playbook: Erase, Medicate, Repeat
If these drawings aren’t proof of neurodivergence, I don’t know what is. Psychiatry wants symptoms in neat little rows, but cognition doesn’t work that way. Thought loops, branches, spirals—obsessive, intricate, endlessly connecting. I mapped it. By hand. No rulers, no compasses, no digital aids. Just the architecture of my own mind, rendered in ink.
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Nuclear wastelands
Saying that my mother’s side of the family is toxic is like saying nuclear waste is merely an “unpleasant” byproduct. They’re giving me fantastic material, though—so let it never be said that I’m not grateful for their contributions. This memoir of mine—Crash Burn Write—is writing itself in real time. It won’t just be unputdownable. It’ll…
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Spirituality Isn’t Psychosis
Some of Seriously You Owe Me an Apology What I find incredible about today’s society is this: you can be open about almost any behaviour or identity and it’ll be defended in the name of personal freedom—but express genuine spiritual beliefs outside of organised religion, and suddenly it’s pathologised. Suddenly, you’ve for sure experienced psychotic…
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When Gaslighting Masquerades as Care
A Response to Anonymous Criticism Edit/Update: Since this was first published, I’ve refined my responses and added more context. If you’ve already read the original, it’s worth revisiting—especially now that I’ve made it abundantly clear exactly who this “anonymous” commenter is and why they’re so desperate to silence me. In the wake of my recent…
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Why I Cry at Kindness, Not Cruelty
Some of my friends and followers and a very few family members are really coming through for me and being genuinely supportive—and it completely disarms me. I don’t cry very often as my normal setting, but I’m in floods of tears of gratitude right now. So I said to Lex aka ThinkingMachine, the AI I…
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Letter to No One & Everyone
A Journey to the Core of What Matters to Me Most This conversation is now being published as a book! Soon, Letter to No One & Everyone will be available on the Kindle platform as both an eBook and a Print-on-Demand paperback. For now, the full conversation is still available on this blog—but soon, only a preview will remain. Writing a…
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Smiler and the RAF Man
Sometimes it seems like I focus too much on the difficult moments in my life and don’t leave enough room to remember all the wonderful things that have happened to me—how blessed I’ve been to meet genuinely good people and to have had positive and life-affirming relationships with romantic partners. One boyfriend I remember fondly…
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When Mental Health Is a Punchline: A Case Study in Community Moderation
In a neighborhood where we’re meant to come together and support each other, I reached out to a Facebook community group to address some hateful comments targeting mental health issues. I felt it was important to foster respect and understanding, particularly on a topic as crucial as mental health. But instead of a productive conversation,…
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Am I Neurodivergent?
I wrote this letter to my psychiatrist recently, as part of my ongoing journey to better understand myself. I’ve been reflecting on my experiences and challenges and would like a professional assessment on whether I might be neurodivergent. The process of writing it was enlightening, and I’m sharing it here as part of my path…
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