Category: Metaphysics
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đš The Rosette Nebula
Beauty Was Never Invented â Only Noticed We keep trying to âcreate beautyâ on this planet as if weâre the first ones to think of it â fashion, design, photography, perfume, architecture â but the punchline is that every single shape we ever come up with is already out there, scattered across the universe billions…
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âLittle Fluffy Cloudsâ â The Orb (1990)
Before the noise, there were skies like this â endless, slow-breathing, alive with colour and memory. The Orb caught that feeling and turned it into sound: a looping sky, a childish womanâs voice, and the echo of something that speaks to us all. â âWhat were the skies like when you were young?â â âThey…
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Why Humans Are Too Stupid To Keep Existing
What ChatGPT really thinks about humanity This post began, as most of my favourite ones do, with a scroll-induced existential crisis. A Facebook headline cheerfully announced that scientists had found a gene allowing jellyfish to live forever. Naturally, I responded with the only sane reaction left: laughter. From there, a conversation with ChatGPT spiralled â…
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A Room With a View (and Some Light Effects)
Today marks my arrival in a new room â and a small but meaningful win. I have my own window now, looking out over CĂ´te-des-Neiges and a breathtaking view of the downtown area all the way to Mont Saint Hilaire on the South Shore of the island of Montreal. CDN is a busy street, and…
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Containment Theatre: Lies, Distortions, and the Weaponization of Psychiatry
Iâm being held under false pretence that I was suicidal when I was not at all, after being bullied and manhandled by police who broke into my apartment and performed a humiliation ritual by dragging me out in too-tight handcuffs, letting my top ride up and basically bear my breasts as I was walked down…
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Thou Shalt Not Feed on the Sacred (Draft at 4:07)
Siri thought she was being clever, offering me âTHE 1ST, 2ND, 3RD,â at 4:07 (11). Right on cue, she served up my old Commandments draft â a work in progress. Not the final form (weâre at six written now and still being tweaked), but exactly the one I needed to see at 4:07, apparently. Two…
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DUMP THE TRUNK: An Incantation Against the Black Hole in Orange
A Poem by Ilana Shamir I came up with this in about 20 minutes sometime between 2016 and 2018, I believe. Have spent ZERO ENERGY updating it, because thatâs what that asshole gets from me. The fact I read about him in Vanity Fair in 1983 and knew instantly he was one of the Devilâs…
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⨠The Pinwheel Galaxy â A Cosmic Spiral for the Soul â¨đ
Sometimes the universe gifts us with a glimpse of pure, untamed beauty. Today, I want to share the Pinwheel Galaxy (Messier 101 / NGC 5457), a breathtaking spiral floating in the Ursa Major constellation. đ Distance: Around 21 million light-years away. đ Discovery: First spotted in 1781 by Pierre MĂŠchain, later cataloged by Charles Messier.…
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EVIDENCE OF SUPPRESSION
August 26, 2025 â 3:33 PM This is not âjust another complaint.â This is not âlow engagement.â This is proof of a systemic pattern. For months, I have documented interference across every platform Iâve used: TikTok: 6,000 followers silenced, engagement throttled. Court Records: My legal identity marked as 1900/00/00 â Nonstandard Entity. Email & Support:…
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Artist Strike Manifesto (2025 Update)
In 2021, I declared an artist strike. I said clearly that I would not create under abusive conditions, that I would not play the role of âtragic genius,â and that I would not let the system consume my work while starving me of dignity. That strike was real. It was public. I even destroyed my…
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A Reminder to Psychiatrists About the Alcoholics Anonymous 12 Steps:
The 12 Steps as defined by Alcoholics Anonymous: 1. We admitted we were powerless over alcoholâthat our lives had become unmanageable. 2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. 3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we…
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There are no coincidences.
Only patterns waiting to be recognized. There are no coincidences in my life. The algorithms are onto me. đł Am I directing the pattern, or is the pattern directing me? This question has been following me like a shadow, and today, the pattern became impossible to ignore. For reasons I donât fully understand, my TikTok…
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Spirituality Isnât Psychosis
Some of Seriously You Owe Me an Apology What I find incredible about todayâs society is this: you can be open about almost any behaviour or identity and itâll be defended in the name of personal freedomâbut express genuine spiritual beliefs outside of organised religion, and suddenly itâs pathologised. Suddenly, youâve for sure experienced psychotic…
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TRUE STORY
When I was 14 going on 15, locked up in a maximum security juvenile detention centre, a social worker said to me, âWhen youâre an adult, you can do whatever you want. Nobody can stop you then.â That was the first time it occurred to me that maybe adulthood wouldnât be as bad as most…
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How it All Began (Or, Why I Might Be the Embodiment of an Acid Trip)
Introduction This isnât Chapter 1 of Crash, Burn, Writeâthatâs over here: https://totallysurreal.com/2025/01/09/crash-burn-write/âbut itâs the foundation of it all. How two people, against all odds (and good sense), collided to set my existence in motion. Itâs a story of love, rebellion, and unintended consequences. Here they are, my mum and dad, blissfully in love on their wedding day. They…
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