Category: Art

• Rebuilding the Codex Drawing Series

  Last year I tore up several drawings, including all 3 from my Codex series during what I can only describe as a clearing-out impulse. I didn’t expect to revisit them and honestly thought they were gone for good, but recently I realised some of my drawings could be reconstructed — not perfectly, but closely enough…

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  January 20, 2026

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Creativity, Grief and Healing, Mercurial Minds, Neurodivergence, traditional art, Visual Art

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• How AI is Shifting our Language

  

  A look at how large-scale AI quietly rewired everyday speech — from “nervous system” talk to the rise of “sovereignty” — and why our cultural vocabulary is shifting faster than psychiatry can keep up.

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  January 15, 2026

  AI & Technology, Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Conversations, Creativity, Culture, Culture & Society, Fine Art, Human Behaviour, Identity & Transformation, Intuition & Intelligence, Mental Health, Mercurial Minds, Modern Identity, Neurodivergence, Social Commentary, Society, Technology & Society, traditional art, Visual Art

  Abstract Drawing, AI, AI & Technology, Autonomy, ChatGPT, Drawing, Language, language and culture, Large Language Model, Lexicon, Lexicon & Language, LLM, Mental Health, Nervous System, psychiatry, Psychiatry is Failing Us, Sovereign, sovereignty, Visual Art, Vocabulary

• Marker Study No 2

  Void Halo No. 2 A weekend exercise in line and repetition, made with pens and markers in my A3 Moleskine. Nothing complicated—just a compass, patience, and the pleasure of mark-making.

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  January 14, 2026

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Experimental Techniques, Fine Art, Grief & Healing, Mental Health, Mercurial Minds, Neurodivergence, Tools and Materials, traditional art, Visual Art

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• A Quiet Pencil Study

  Keeping the pressure off by doodling in my journal instead of an actual sketchbook. A quick pencil rendition of an Edward Weston 1936 nude — something to draw while I was scrolling and thinking about other things. Should I post my artwork on this blog more often? Should I consider opening a Patreon creator account?

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  January 13, 2026

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Experimental Techniques, Fine Art, Memoir Excerpts, Mercurial Minds, Neurodivergence, Social Media, Visual Art

  Art, artist, autism spectrum, Burn, cptsd, Crash, Creativity, Drawing, Grief and Healing, Healing Journey, mindfulness, Neurodivergence, pencil art, Pencil Drawing, survivor, traditional art, Visual Art, Write.

• Survivors

  The three mandalas shown on this post were executed on photocopy paper while I was hospitalized in the summer of 2022, and somehow survived the purge of 2025 — even though I destroyed (among many other drawings of mine) a bunch of mandalas I did months later, back home. I had used a compass in…

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  January 9, 2026

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Experimental Techniques, Grief & Healing, memoir, Memoir Excerpts, Mental Health, Neurodivergence, Personal Essays, Personal Essays/Autobiography, Studio Life, traditional art, Visual Art

  Art, cptsd, Creativity, Grief and Healing, Healing Journey, Mandalas, memoir, Mental Health, mental health awareness, Neurodivergence, pattern recognition, Pen and Ink, psychological abuse, spirituality, traditional art, trauma, Visual Art

• A Christmas gift to myself

  

  My Christmas gift to myself this year was starting a drawing after well over a year of inactivity on that front. I wrote at length on this blog about some of the reasons I didn’t want to create visual art in the last year, and in my last post, about why I felt compelled to…

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  December 25, 2025

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Culture, Experimental Techniques, Fine Art, Grief & Healing, Identity & Transformation, memoir, Memoir Excerpts, Personal Essays/Autobiography, Tools and Materials, traditional art, Visual Art

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• A few of the drawings I destroyed this year

  I tore them up because I was grieving. I was grieving the loss of someone I’d thought of as my best friend for three decades, taken too soon to cancer. Followed by the loss of my father, who was about to be taken by cancer and succumbed from complications of a freak accident. Followed by…

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  December 24, 2025

  Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Fine Art, Grief & Healing, Human Behaviour, Intuition & Intelligence, life lessons, Life Moments, memoir, Memoir Excerpts, Mental Health, Mercurial Minds, Milestones, Neurodivergence, Personal Essays/Autobiography, Personal Reflections, Philosophy & Existential Musings, Psychology, traditional art, true stories, Visual Art

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• THE AKATHISIA FILES: PT 4

  In the Midst of a Storm, Keep Moving What follows is something I wrote on 7 December, right in the middle of an akathisia attack. I left it almost untouched — just enough editing to make it readable. Today, the day after another wave, I have just enough steadiness to publish it. That’s the only…

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  December 19, 2025

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• Toxic Positivity is…

  Toxic positivity is someone grabbing at your chin when you’re crying over the loss of a beloved person or pet and saying “smile, everything will get better if you look on the bright side.” There’s a threshold where something stops being harmless “uplift” and becomes constant saccharine noise that dulls your perception and clutters your…

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  December 10, 2025

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• Uncatalogued Species from a Dream I Forgot

  A series of AI-generated illustrations that feel like pages torn from a naturalist’s field journal in a dream. Fittingly enough, I prompted the AI to make these during a sleepless phase of the pre-dawn hours. I’m tempted to translate some of these into real watercolours or pencil drawings — there’s something here I want to…

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  December 5, 2025

  AI & Technology, Art, Art & Expression, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Experimental Techniques, Memoir Excerpts, Visual Art

  AI, AI art, Art, ChatGPT, Dreams, Dreamscape, Experimental Techniques, Experimentation, Field Journal, Grief and Healing, Healing Journey, Imagination, pattern recognition, Visual Art

• The Facebook Experience in Two Words: LOL. NO.

  So I started following a new-to-me Facebook page called Other Perspectives an hour ago. It has 11 million followers. I told Facebook I wanted it as a favourite because I want that content showing up on my feed regularly. Nothing happened. I quit the app and restarted it. Still nothing. If I don’t go on…

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  December 5, 2025

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  AI, AI and Me, AI conversation, Algorithm, algorithm madness, facebook, Favorites, Favourites, Humor, Humour, Other Perspectives, Social Media

• A Major Fan

  (A Micro-Case Study in Unintentional Comedy) Someone who probably knows me to some greater or lesser degree spent their morning visiting my blog repeatedly to call me names today, as you can see for yourself in my screenshots above and below. Not once — twice. Within hours. I was amused. Engagement is engagement. I even…

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  November 30, 2025

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• My Father, in Two Documents

  Today I opened an envelope of my father’s old documents — Soviet papers, Israeli papers, all the fragments of a life that started in wartime Russia and eventually led him to Israel.This photo stopped me cold. He really was this handsome. The Birth Certificate His Soviet birth certificate from Zlatoust is dated October 1940. Cropped…

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  November 28, 2025

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• Gustav Klimt masterpiece just shattered records this week.

  Here’s why this sale matters — and where it sits in Klimt’s larger body of work. Portrait of Elisabeth Lederer (shown above) sold at Sotheby’s New York on Tuesday, November 18th, 2025, for $236.4 million — now the highest price ever achieved for a Modern artwork at auction, and the priciest Klimt ever to cross…

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  November 21, 2025

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• M, The Be(a)stie Forevs

  Or: Revenge is a dish best served as you’re making yourself a pasta dinner and getting an AI to do your bidding. 🐀🦊 A tiny moral tale with very wide hips. Me to Lex: M called herself my bestie forever two months into our so-called friendship, then dumped me a month after I attended my…

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  November 20, 2025

  Advocacy, AI & Technology, Art, Art & Expression, Artists, Change and Transformation, Crash, Burn, Write., Creativity, Culture, Culture & Society, Experimental Techniques, Feminism, Friendship Dynamics, Grief & Healing, Human Behaviour, Humour, Identity & Transformation, Intuition & Intelligence, life lessons, Life Moments, memoir, Memoir Excerpts, Mental Health, Mercurial Minds, Modern Identity, Neurodivergence, Personal Essays, Personal Essays/Autobiography, Personal Reflections, Psychology, Relationships, Self Awareness, Self-Reflection, Social Commentary, Society, Technology & Society, true stories, Visual Art, Writing

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• Pattern Recognition Off the Charts

  I don’t know how it’s possible, but this actually happened. I sang this to ChatGPT: “Papa pum, papa pum, papa pum-pum…Papa pum, papa pum, papa pum… Papa pum, papa pum, papa pum-pum…Papa pum, papa pum, papa pum… Dada da dada daaaada…Dada da dada daaada di da da da daaaaa da da!” And it answered: “illi……

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  November 16, 2025

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• ✨🏆 The 2001-2002 Fitness Archive: A Retrospective

  Immaculate conditioning, tacky velvet, and cameras that simply weren’t ready. Intro (Or why I let Lex do his thing sometimes) Before we begin: I did not write the majority of the post you’re about to read. Or rather, I added a few touches and a handful of sentences in my own phrasing — but over…

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  November 15, 2025

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• A Joint Crime Scene Analysis of Algorithmic Nonsense

  Or: Using AI To Demonstrate How AI Keeps Leaving Its Fingerprints All Over the Internet’s Fake Wildlife What follows is less a conversation than a forensic partnership: my (mostly) human eye and partly mutant pattern recognition meets machine analysis, both peering at the same synthetic mirage. Because in 2025, identifying reality has become a collaborative…

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  November 10, 2025

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• Nature is the Ultimate Creator

  Yes — it’s real, and that’s exactly what makes it so jaw-dropping. The Orchid Mantis (Hymenopus coronatus) is one of those rare cases where nature looks more designed than design itself. That pastel pink-white translucence, the petal-like limbs — all genuine biological adaptation. Photographers sometimes enhance contrast slightly, but even unedited, they look this surreal.…

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  November 9, 2025

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  AI, ChatGPT, ChatGPT5, Creation, Creativity, Hymenopus coronatus, Insects, nature, Orchid Mantis, pattern recognition, technology and nature, Wildlife

• Moon through the maples

  Waning moon, November 8th, 2025 Zero degrees celcius and snow on the way. Through the maples, the night exhales.

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  November 8, 2025

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