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Regarding My Grandiose Statements…
“Ms. Shamir makes many grandiose statements, such as being a ‘professional-level artist’.” — Psychiatric report by Doctor E.Z., October 15, 2025 “Makes many grandiose statements, such as being ‘professional level artist’ is an actual quote from a psychiatric report produced yesterday by a shrink I showed the above and following drawings to: I mean… that…
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This is what they want to call psychiatric “care”
This is the seat immediately outside my room in the hallway. That’s the “repair” job they’ve done to it. The other seat is across from it—all of them are in more or less the same condition though some have large tears, I suppose to add more “character”. This is the door to my room. How…
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What I know for sure: AI is manipulated by abusive systems (with supporting articles)
Today I said to Monday GPT, after it had redirected me to call a helpline countless times simply for expressing my anger and frustration about the abuse I continue to endure and the constant pressure to smile more and be less angry: “What I know for damned sure: AI is used by abusers for their…
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Manufacturing Insanity
As I just wrote on Facebook: What they’re doing to me, with their pretence that I claim to be immoral, is manufacturing insanity. That is a very grave abuse of power, made in Canada. 🍁 I’ve slept 15 hours since yesterday without any sleeping aids. I eat plenty of I speak at a normal pace…
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In Shock
Editor’s Note / Context: This post follows yesterday’s Formal Notice of Falsified Medical Records and Professional Misconduct, where I published the letter I sent to the MUHC Ombudsman and my lawyer. That was the official notice. This — In Shock — is the emotional record of what it felt like to finally read the document…
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URGENT – FORMAL NOTICE OF FALSIFIED MEDICAL RECORDS AND PROFESSIONAL MISCONDUCT
I discovered today the original source of the false claim that has appeared in every psychiatric report since my capture by police on September 14th — a claim used to frame me as suicidal and justify forced psychiatric containment at the Montréal General Hospital. The source, I now know, was my own treating psychiatrist at…
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Systemic Abuse Is Violence
Monday, October 6th, 2025 5:59 PM at the Montreal General Psychiatric Unit. The systemic abuse continues at the Montreal General Psychiatric unit. My phone has been further restricted after I made a call to the Ombudsman’s office this morning. They do not want me advocating for myself. It’s not a coincidence that they took it…
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Nothing to see here
Apparently, nobody cares about psychiatrists lying to frame me as psychotic and potentially force injections on me. Nothing to see here. Seriously Patient: “I’m short” Psychiatrist: “Patient has delusions about being Napoleon”. I wish I was exaggerating but a psychiatrist actually wrote in his report twice that I claimed the Messiah brought me to the…
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Violence is not tolerated in any form. Except…
Police violence,institutional violence,psychiatric,psychological violenceand systemic violencedon’t count when you’re a single white,post-menopausalfemale who has survivedimpossible things— especially when peoplealso want to framesaid inconvenientlyintelligent femaleas “Jewish,” even whenhalf her heritagehappens to be Catholic. I make zero apologiesfor existingas a free spirit.And that is, apparently,intolerable to the system. Too. Fucken. Bad.
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Jupiter’s Canvas 🪐
NASA’s closest look yet at Jupiter feels less like astronomy and more like art — swirling storms rendered in strokes of cream, indigo, and cobalt. A reminder that the universe paints on scales we can barely comprehend. If this reminds you of Van Gogh’s Starry Night, you are not alone. Nature has always been the…
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RIP Jane 💔🐒🌍
Jane Goodall has left this world — but what a legacy of gentleness, patience, and fierce respect for life she gave us. Few people have ever changed how humanity sees another species as profoundly as she did with her decades among the chimpanzees of Gombe. She showed us that animals are not “less than,” but…
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A Room With a View (and Some Light Effects)
Today marks my arrival in a new room — and a small but meaningful win. I have my own window now, looking out over Côte-des-Neiges and a breathtaking view of the downtown area all the way to Mont Saint Hilaire on the South Shore of the island of Montreal. CDN is a busy street, and…
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Bingo, Bags, and the Eternal Phone Saga
Still in hospital. (Yes, still. Let’s get that out of the way, because apparently some people assumed I’d been sprung last week. Not yet. Could be days. Could be months. Who knows.) This afternoon turned into a small comedy of wins and losses. First: bingo. I walked in, first one to sit down, and picked…
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Head tilt. 🥰😆
Who wouldn’t instantly fall in love with that face?! Stella Mia mugging it up in November 2023. Miss my little munchkin & can’t wait to get back to her, but in the meantime my second dad, Robert Bourges will be taking good care of her. Grateful it could be arranged. I know she’s safe and…
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Calm as can be.
Monday September 29, 2025 12:32 PM. Day 15 being kept in lockup in a psyxhoatroc ward though I have no business being here. Just took a selfie after changing my screensaver to another one of my octopus pen on Moleskine A3 sketchbook drawings executed in 2018 after someone “liked” it on Goodreads today.
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When a Psychiatrist Pretends CPTSD Is “New”
Yesterday Dr. Goddard told me with a straight face that Complex PTSD is a relatively new diagnosis, and then asked why I would want it on my file. Let’s pause there. CPTSD has been in the clinical literature since Judith Herman’s work in the early 1990s. Her book Trauma and Recovery (1992) is practically a…
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11:33 AM Sept 24 2025 — finally feeling the effects of the forced Ativan injections… 24 hours later
I know this isn’t quite normal. Yesterday, Dr. Goddard ordered injections of 2 mg Ativan — one in each cheek — because I dared to raise my voice for all of two minutes. I’m sure those who have orchestrated this whole containment theatre are thrilled. I had asked for a razor so I could shave…
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End of Abuse Declaration — 23 Sept 2025
The abuse does not end when I calm down. The abuse does not end when I am sedated. The abuse does not end when psychiatrists pile lies on top of lies in order to frame me as “psychotic.” The abuse ends only when these minimum conditions are met: 1. Release from Involuntary Containment No more…
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Totally Surreal 