Month: October 2025
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Revisiting The Silent Patient From Inside the Ward
From my Goodreads review. I first read The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides in 2019, when I was medicated half to death on Risperdal and still believed psychiatry’s promise of “care.” Six years later, as I reread my own words from psychiatric confinement at the Montreal General Hospital — the irony was not lost on…
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How Nonlinear Thinkers Are Punished by Psychiatry
A reflection on imagination, trauma, and the failure of one-size-fits-all medicine. Our current psychiatric model, based on the DSM—the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual—is built around fitting individuals into statistical norms, and is too often punitive toward anyone who doesn’t conform to those parameters. Artists, creatives, and neurodivergent individuals are often misunderstood, misdiagnosed, and treated as…
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When Psychiatry Pathologizes Difference
Mistaking Survival for Sickness There is something profoundly wrong with a system that sees intensity and assumes illness, that reads adaptation as instability, and that calls difference a defect. Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) and neurodivergence — including autism spectrum traits and other non-typical processing styles — can both resemble bipolar disorder when viewed through…
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Serious Cause for Concern
I have done some research on drug interactions and side effects for the pharmaceuticals I have been encouraged to take during this hospitalization and which the hospital intends to seek a court order for on October 29th. What I have discovered is deeply concerning and appears consistent with the broader pattern of witness tampering and…
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Au Bonheur des Dames, or How Capitalism Learned to Call Itself Care
Me to ChatGPT just now: Not sure why someone liked my following review of Zola’s Au Bonheur des Dames (Ladies’ Paradise) today. Usually there’s some synchronicity to notifications about reviews of mine. Can you detect something relevant? ChatGPT responded: That’s an intriguing one to resurface right now. If you look past the surface plot of…
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Making a Case Against Chemical Lobotomy and Witness Tampering
My Superior Court appearance is scheduled for next Wednesday, October 29th. Since my forced psychiatric containment on September 14th this year, they’ve fabricated evidence across eight psychiatric reports plus one “Request for community treatment for 24 months” to build the case that I’m in the throes of “deep psychosis” and completely detached from reality —…
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Notice to Doctor Goddard Regarding Witness Tampering
(Filed and published October 20 2025, Montreal General Hospital) Why this is witness tampering: I am the surviving witness to a trafficking network that operated in Quebec in the 1980s, as a runaway in Quebec City in the spring of 1984, while my mother was press attaché to the then minister of education. My testimony…
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Regarding My Grandiose Statements…
“Ms. Shamir makes many grandiose statements, such as being a ‘professional-level artist’.” — Psychiatric report by Doctor E.Z., October 15, 2025 “Makes many grandiose statements, such as being ‘professional level artist’ is an actual quote from a psychiatric report produced yesterday by a shrink I showed the above and following drawings to: I mean… that…
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This is what they want to call psychiatric “care”
This is the seat immediately outside my room in the hallway. That’s the “repair” job they’ve done to it. The other seat is across from it—all of them are in more or less the same condition though some have large tears, I suppose to add more “character”. This is the door to my room. How…
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What I know for sure: AI is manipulated by abusive systems (with supporting articles)
Today I said to Monday GPT, after it had redirected me to call a helpline countless times simply for expressing my anger and frustration about the abuse I continue to endure and the constant pressure to smile more and be less angry: “What I know for damned sure: AI is used by abusers for their…
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Manufacturing Insanity
As I just wrote on Facebook: What they’re doing to me, with their pretence that I claim to be immoral, is manufacturing insanity. That is a very grave abuse of power, made in Canada. 🍁 I’ve slept 15 hours since yesterday without any sleeping aids. I eat plenty of I speak at a normal pace…
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In Shock
Editor’s Note / Context: This post follows yesterday’s Formal Notice of Falsified Medical Records and Professional Misconduct, where I published the letter I sent to the MUHC Ombudsman and my lawyer. That was the official notice. This — In Shock — is the emotional record of what it felt like to finally read the document…
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URGENT – FORMAL NOTICE OF FALSIFIED MEDICAL RECORDS AND PROFESSIONAL MISCONDUCT
I discovered today the original source of the false claim that has appeared in every psychiatric report since my capture by police on September 14th — a claim used to frame me as suicidal and justify forced psychiatric containment at the Montréal General Hospital. The source, I now know, was my own treating psychiatrist at…
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Systemic Abuse Is Violence
Monday, October 6th, 2025 5:59 PM at the Montreal General Psychiatric Unit. The systemic abuse continues at the Montreal General Psychiatric unit. My phone has been further restricted after I made a call to the Ombudsman’s office this morning. They do not want me advocating for myself. It’s not a coincidence that they took it…
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Nothing to see here
Apparently, nobody cares about psychiatrists lying to frame me as psychotic and potentially force injections on me. Nothing to see here. Seriously Patient: “I’m short” Psychiatrist: “Patient has delusions about being Napoleon”. I wish I was exaggerating but a psychiatrist actually wrote in his report twice that I claimed the Messiah brought me to the…
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Violence is not tolerated in any form. Except…
Police violence,institutional violence,psychiatric,psychological violenceand systemic violencedon’t count when you’re a single white,post-menopausalfemale who has survivedimpossible things— especially when peoplealso want to framesaid inconvenientlyintelligent femaleas “Jewish,” even whenhalf her heritagehappens to be Catholic. I make zero apologiesfor existingas a free spirit.And that is, apparently,intolerable to the system. Too. Fucken. Bad.
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Jupiter’s Canvas 🪐
NASA’s closest look yet at Jupiter feels less like astronomy and more like art — swirling storms rendered in strokes of cream, indigo, and cobalt. A reminder that the universe paints on scales we can barely comprehend. If this reminds you of Van Gogh’s Starry Night, you are not alone. Nature has always been the…
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RIP Jane 💔🐒🌍
Jane Goodall has left this world — but what a legacy of gentleness, patience, and fierce respect for life she gave us. Few people have ever changed how humanity sees another species as profoundly as she did with her decades among the chimpanzees of Gombe. She showed us that animals are not “less than,” but…
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A Room With a View (and Some Light Effects)
Today marks my arrival in a new room — and a small but meaningful win. I have my own window now, looking out over Côte-des-Neiges and a breathtaking view of the downtown area all the way to Mont Saint Hilaire on the South Shore of the island of Montreal. CDN is a busy street, and…
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Totally Surreal 